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DECEMBER 15, 2010, MCCORMACK THEATRE, BROWN UNIVERSITY

5:43. december 15. 2010. On Livejournal again after a very long hiatus. And thinking of home.

Why am I here again? Is it because I'm going home in less than twenty four hours, away from Providence, away from this place - to go home to family, to and ultimately a dark room - unable to sleep - I see the camera - unable to sleep, in a a dark room, wanting to reconnect with old friends who all abandoned Livejournal long ago -- I will find myself on there once again... insomnia, introspection, concentration, nostalgia.

I wonder if other people feel the same way about Livejournal - like it's just like coming home. I guess not. Perhaps - maybe it's just my generation - growing up digital, wired for distraction ? As a recent headline in the NYTimes said - god, I've internalized the New York Times. I spent too mmuch time online this semester.

Wow, what is that? I suppose I've really been away from Livejournal too long. Maybe it was a desperate attempt to keep up with the rest of the Internet. Wow, w... Itnernet trainwrecks. Perhaps .. trainrwreck - I ahve to concentrate. I rememeber - where was I? Android apps? Ahh -- it'll be strange. Coming back to Livejorunal with this new feature is like -- coming back home and seeing my mom with a Kindle, my sister doing college applications, my brother taller than me. -- =-- your grown -- wow. My I feel very uncomfrotable.

I'll tell you this - I'm wshaking in my seat - I'm not typing things correctly - because who are you anyway? Who's reading this? ... Why is the only thing world of warcraft? All I hear is little laughter and some - Ltitle Prince - Paraprsop.. can't even spell -- I can't concentrate - I feel the tingling - cI can't find the words will look at Google - I can't cent. -- clearlyGoogle can't concentrate either. I can't - there' 50s cent. Song lyrics always show up, as do - Wow, I can't believe it's no btuter, it turner to Courier again, btu that's a measly little error - it could be a null pointer exception.

Java - this will be my plast - will this be my last meeting with Java? Will I continue with CS? Or will I plunge headlong into this thing called Electronic Writing... this thing, this black box, creaky table, my future?

what is that that's not even English - How do I tur this off I cCATn IC CANT CONCENTRATE HOW DO I TURN THIS OFFClearly - I did not write this - I did not write a way to turn this off - and here I am at the mercy of the computer.

The rolling stones. There they are, at hte mercy of computer geeks. I - are viruses - they're... special. Providence - it knows I'm in Providence. Google knows I'm in Providence, this is sscary -- it's like the Firefly. wow. There was a big laughter, and laughter coming from nowhere, and the Browser spazzing out, and - I can't believe this - how do tI turnt htis off - laughing Yoga - I can't beleive it's not butter - I can't -- T-aPain. I really - why can't I own a canaidn wht sald omg this is riduclosu

I... What is this. CAN'T CONCENTRATE KEEP GETTING DISTRACTED CHOW DO I TURN THIS OFF BASJAHAJSKHAJKSHAJSJKASHJKASLHSAJKLHsadsljasdlkjasdkjsadkljsalkjasd I have to

whgoogle caffeine. I'm moerMayeb it is the caffeine - maybe I had too much caffeine - mayeb the Internet had too much caffeine.

Oh my there it goes again.

And there I get distracted. Yet again.

Where was I again?